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Blank faces

All the same

Blinding headache

Going out of my mind

No reason left to be here

Why do we want those things

that mean nothing in the end?

Maybe life is best lived with the knowledge

that you will die tomorrow

In the end, we are but the lonely

Mice spinning on a wheel

Over and over and over and over

Then death comes

The wheel stops spinning

And that was that.

© Lily K. Lynn 2012

Silent Ahead

Silent Ahead

The sunset looks so beautiful
Painted in orange and blue
I wish I could fly away with the wind
For my heartbreak came too soon

I walk the path of silent ahead
Empty road before me
It’s hard to tell what’s real anymore
It’s hard to really see

I raise my hand into the light
And see it disappear
Fading into world’s background
Into all that’s left of here

And it’s just this moment I can feel
That maybe I’ll be okay
When I feel my heart pulled from me
And the wind take it away

That’s when the tears can cease
For without a heart I cannot cry
I can remain a ghost inside a shell
Its fountain running dry

Sometimes it’s just so very close
I can almost escape from here
Walk into the silent ahead
Leave behind my fallen tears

Everything stopped suddenly
The colours turned on down
I stare into spiralling black hole
And watch the lights turn out

I walk the empty roads at dusk
And hope to not return
To disappear into the silent ahead
Would be my greatest lesson learned.

© Lily K. Lynn 2012

When…?

When…?

She’s slowly falling, losing her will
And all she can think about are those pills
She spilled her soul and bled out red
She ignored those voices in her head

She wonders if she can really fly
If she jumped from somewhere high
She wonders if her wrist will bleed
If this was all part of destiny

She watched herself fail too many times
And tried to pretend she was just fine
While others got what she wanted more
She just remains what she was before

Can’t do it now, can’t really go on
It seems she’s waited just far too long
She wonders when it will be her turn
Instead she continues to crash and burn

She sees disappointment reflected in eyes
Whispers she’s failing at her life
Nothing to show here, nothing to feel
Leaving this place is the only thing real

Her heart is hollow, but the rest of her burns
She’s sick of struggling to be heard
Her tears are like rain from an angry sky
She wants to drift, she wants to say goodbye

She’s tired of the ones who say
She’s wasting her precious life away
When so much effort goes on inside
To get those dreams for which she’d die

 If dreams are waste, then death’s just as good
She’s sick of being misunderstood
So drift away now, it’s finally her time
She becomes the light up there that shines.

© Lily K. Lynn 2012

Take Me Away

Take Me Away

Take me away to another place
Where I can spread my wings
Free my imprisoned soul from here
Free me from everything

Leave behind the nothings I’ve built
The dreams that crashed on down
Depart the body I’ve been given
To which I have been bound

Cleanse my eyes from darkness
From seeing nothing but walls
Free me from the emptiness
From this rushing, endless fall

 Everything I have is nothing
Humanity disappoints me
I’m just another blank in this world
Consumed by my insanity

 So take me away from this plane
Where failures won’t break my heart
Where the scattered pieces of my dreams
Don’t lie here fallen apart

Everything I touch turns to ash
Everything I do leads here
This dark abyss of crushed hopes
Grows deeper every year

So let me lie here in a ball
Let the cold tears stain my cheeks
Then take me to a better place
Where I won’t feel so weak

It’s too late now, it’s too late now
The world has turned so grey
So find me, please, pick me up
Just take me, take me away.

© Lily K. Lynn 2012